Sunday, August 30, 2009

A Special Saturday Night

"Bend over"

Two of my favorite words to hear. I know what it means, and what I should do but I cant help myself. "I'm sorry?"

"You heard me. Bend over. Strip, on the bed, hands and knees, put your ass in the air for me."

I love my wife. I love what she does to me in the quiet of our bedroom.

We laid out our play blanket and I obediently stripped down and climbed up, resting on my elbows, knees wide, ass in the air and my cock hanging down.

"Perfect, you look like a good little bitch"

I couldn't help but shake my ass a little at her.

I heard her moving around behind me, but we didn't say anything for a minute or two. "Do you feel exposed? Open?" she asked.

"I do, very much so" I replied, I like being vulnerable to my wife and she knows it. In this room, just the two of us I can take down my guard and and let her use me. I know it will feel great, it might even hurt a little, but I don't have to worry about that because I am her bitch for the evening.

"What should I do with you tonight?", she asked me.

The question wasn't rhetorical, she really is asking, she wants my input to find out what I am up for and to hear the words come out of my mouth. I hesitated, despite my already emasculated condition, there is something about detailing how one would like to be violated that stops me short. I have learned to press ahead, though I often mumble my response.

"Why don't you use your fingers on me for a bit to get me started and then work me over with your cock for a while. After that, I would love to try to cum on your fingers if you are up for it."

"Sounds good" she said and opened up the toy box. Out came the rubber gloves and lube, and then a pause as she thought about what size cock to fuck me with.

"You are going to be gone for a few days this week aren't you?"

I nodded my head yes, "I'll be back late Tuesday"

"Then I better make sure you remember this"

She reached in and pulled out our second largest cock: 1 3/4" in diameter and about 8 inches long. Excellent for a good hard fucking and more than appropriate for shoving into my mouth if it strikes her fancy to see me suck a cock.

"This will work fine" She said and placed the cock between my knees so I could see it as I stay crouched on all fours. "Arch your back for me baby, I want to see that ass high in the air. I know you want to get fucked, but you have to show me."

I have gotten pretty good at holding this position for an extended period of time but it is always a strain after a while. In response, I tilted my pelvis and shined my ass into the air.

"Much better, now you look like you want to get fucked."

And I do, I really do.

I felt her slide onto be bed behind me and I could feel the exhalation of her breath across my back. Its enough to give me chills. I felt her hands touch my lower back, sliding down, drawing her fingers down my cheeks, pulling them apart as she dropped lower.

In a low, quiet voice "Very nice... you want something don't you?"

I nodded my head again, focused on the sensation of her fingers gripping me, kneading the muscles around my posterior.

"What was that? I didn't hear you...You want something?"

Its all part of me voicing my need, laying it out in the open.

"Yes, I want you to touch me ... please... please touch me.", I said. There it is, my taboo need given voice. It took her less than five minutes to coax it out of me.

I felt her fingers release their outward pressure on my 'glutes. They drew inward and I enjoyed the sensation of one latex covered finger circling my anal opening.

My wife has fucked me many times but each and every time at this point it feels like the first. Nerves tingling, a moment of nervousness, I waited, eyes closed, head bowed for her to enter me.

"This is nice baby" she said with her finger continuing to circle, "but you seem a bit tight, you are going to need to relax for me."

"I am trying dear", I blacked out my mind, just focusing on the sweet pleasure of her finger ever circling inward.

"Is this how you want to be touched honey? You want to be touched like my little bitch?"

Yes... please" I replied, my tone was practically begging. I don't understand my need, I never really have, but I know that the answer lies in her fingers, her cock... my wife's willingness to give me a long hard fuck.

Her finger pulled away briefly and I heard movement behind me. A few moments later a cold sensation radiated from my anus, quickly replaced by the indescribable feeling of a finger swirling and pushing into my ass. It isn't much of a penetration, I know from past experience that she is just getting a little lube worked inside me for the fun to come but it feels fantastic. Her finger drew away for a moment and again, the renewed chill of fresh lube. Four or five times she pushed more and more lube into my tight ass, making sure that our activities aren't excessively uncomfortable to me.

"Relax baby" is all she said when she slowly started to penetrate me in earnest.

I love this feeling. Here I am, a grown man, successful, confident, and all of that is laid bare as I kneel bent over in front of my wife with her digit fully inserted into my waiting ass. I love being her bitch.

I could feel her searching around for my prostate, alternating between curling and massaging her finger to find my p-spot and circling the inner area of my anus. I love feeling her move inside me, turning, swirling, probing. It makes me more open, both physically and emotionally.

After a short amount of time her finger slid out to just the very entrance of my anus, when without ceremony or comment, a second finger joined the first to push inside my well lubricated ass. She didn't ask, she doesn't need to, I want to take whatever she gives me.

I seem to remember she used to ask, but after so long of me saying yes to everything, my ass is a foregone conclusion for her.

Two fingers slid inside me all the way to her knuckles. Though we are still somewhat new to prostate massage, my wife knows what she is after and withing a few moments I feel that excruciatingly pleasant pulse in my cock.

I did what any honest man would do when his wife hits that spot. With hesitation, I moan. Long, hard, and deep I voiced my pleasure to anyone that cared to listen.

She pressed her fingers again, and again I was hit with the flash of pleasure that makes the tip of my cock feel like fiery cum is pouring out. There was no cum, but that is the best I can describe the sensation.

I moaned again.

"Hush, you are going to be a good bitch and take this quietly, I don't want to have to explain anything to the neighbors and the window is open."

I muffled myself and took it. I took her thrusting fingers as they ignited my cock and violate my ass. I can't moan, I can't even whimper, I just stay in place and focus on nothing but the sensations rolling through me.

After a few minutes of this, of my wife thrusting , massaging, torturing me I heard her ask, "Why isn't your cock hard bitch?"

I hadn't noticed.

Other than the waves of pleasure radiating out to the tip of my cock, I completely forgot about my member.

"It's because I am relaxed for you dear, if I contract to drive an erection, my ass will clamp down on your fingers.

Without responding, she reached between my legs and swatted my cock. The light slap arrived at the same moment her fingers pulsed on my prostate. The feeling was intense.

"You need to work on that then" she said, "I am sure there is a way you can show me a nice hard cock wile you are getting fucked."

I responded as earnestly as I could given the situation, "I'll try, I promise."

Her hand closed around my hanging cock, already swelling from the stimulus of her slap and started to pump the burgeoning shaft in time to her thrusting fingers.

"That's it, show me that hard cock you little ass fuck"

There was no stopping it, my cock grew in her hand and I clenched my inner muscles, driving more blood into the shaft. My cock became rigid in her hand, an arrow pointing straight at the bed beneath my upward ass. My anus squeezed her fingers, slowing her thrusts into me as she had to work more for her access into my body.

I felt her fingers move to a shallower depth within me followed by quick up/down, left/right movements as she oscillates her fingers trying to vibrate my ass back to its relaxed, submissive state.

"Definitely need to practice that" she said, and I couldn't help but agree.

I would experiment with decoupling the muscle control but I was already too outside of myself to try something that cerebral. I wasn't a man anymore, but a husband-toy for my wife to play with, a system of stimulus and response twitching and arching under her manipulations.

After a few moments she stopped masturbating my cock, I relaxed somewhat and her fingers resume their prostate exploration.

To be clear, my wife doesn't exactly focus on my prostate. Doing so would mean her fingers would remain mostly at the same depth and the only change would be the gentle massaging of her finger tips. No, she continued to thrust, driving, fucking me, but using my prostate as a goal, a point to drive to. I don't know I will ever cum from this kind of stimulation, but it is a fantastic way to get fucked in the ass.

As these thoughts scrolled through my mind, I felt a sharp sensation hit the tip of my cock.

She was pinching me, she gripped the very tip of my cock at the glans between her thumb and fore finger and pulled my cock around in circles.

My wife knows I enjoy a bit of cock and ball torture and pulled out all the stops for me last night. I started and shuddered as the sharp sensation hit me.

"Do you like that baby? Does my bitch like having the head of his cock pinched?"

I nodded my head yes, not trusting my voice at this point.

The thrusting, pounding fingers continued, insistent and driving into my ass. Her other hand alternated, pinching and pulling then slapping my cock. The sound was surely quieter than I imagined but in this room the only sounds were my ragged breathing, the whisper sound of a latex glove penetrating and the smack of skin against skin as my cock took its punishment.

I was in heaven.

"Onto your back" she said after a few more minutes of exhilarating pleasure, "I want to see your face while you take this."

I slowly made my way from my knees to my back and reflected on what "take this" meant. She wasn't referring to a toy or her fingers, "take this" means taking the violation, the love, the sodomy, the affection that she gave me. And I love to watch her give it.

She might not say it, but as often as not my wife will close her eyes when she fucks me. She is so focused on the her efforts inside and outside my body that she often only opens her eyes to see my expression, to take in the fruit of her efforts. I love taking this and I deeply hope that she loves giving it.

I laid down on my back and instinctively pulled my knees wide, toward my chest with my feet floating in the air.

She smiled at me, "you're in a hurry to get those legs spread for me. Look at you, wide open for me aren't you?"

I smiled in agreement. I believe in calling a bitch a bitch, and last night I was definitely that.

Dirty talk really isn't her thing. When I make love to my wife the only words I issue relate to love and generally I just keep my mouth shut, or otherwise occupied. But she knows that I have slightly different needs and indulged me. "You look like a whore lying like that" she said smiling, "you look like my good little fuck toy, all spread out with your cheap, whore ass exposed and open. I bet I know what your little whore ass needs" and without further preamble her fingers dove back into me.

"Such a bitch, such a fucking cunt aren't you?"

The words rolled over me, helping me shed the armor I wear outside the walls of this room, even if for just a short while.

"I own your ass you little cunt, and I am going to fuck you until I see cum dripping out of that tiny little cock of yours."

The words themselves aren't important though I do enjoy them. For me it is the tone of her voice... controlling, dominant, confident, and on top of me.

Her finger started their rhythmic pulse anew on my prostate. Its different on my back, the human body moves things around depending on its orientation and I have to be very diligent on relaxing my inner muscles or my prostate seems to run away from her fingers. The implication is not lost on me. If I don't fully relax, fully give in and accept what is done to me, then there won't be even a shadow of the pleasure I experienced earlier. In this situation pleasure only comes from acceptance.

I groaned... she found it, she found it and she worked it.

I couldn't help myself, I reached between my legs and began massaging my cock in front of her.

"That's right, go ahead and touch your cock baby, touch it while I fuck your ass."

We proceeded like this for a few minutes, thrusting fingers and a pumping fist and I knew I was heading to orgasm.

But I didn't want that just yet. Call me a slut, a whore, a fag, whatever, but I didn't want to go through the evening without my wife's cock buried inside me.

"Honey" I rasped out "Could you fuck me with your cock?"

There is no pride there, just lust, a wanting for my wife's thick dick and she knows it.

"You want my cock baby? You want to take your wife's cock up the ass tonight?"

"Yes please, please fuck me with it. I want to feel you while I am sitting on my flight tomorrow (which is where I am typing incidentally)"

"Okay baby, I'll give you some cock"

I smiled and shuddered as her fingers slid out of my ass.

She reached over and grabbed her toy cock, never breaking eye contact with me.

While looking right into my eyes with her sweet smile she rubbed her lubed, gloved hand over the shaft making sure it would do its duty on me.

I flexed my knees back further to my chest as she lowered the silicone cock below my line of sight to my well-used anus.

It slid right in. No resistance at all, not only did she do a fantastic job lubing my ass, but the past thirty minutes of riding her fingers opened my ass to any of her wishes. She noticed this and commented, "You are open baby, you took my cock like a fucking pro, what a good little bitch you are tonight."

I couldn't respond, she'd already started thrusting. Gripping the cock in her hand she penetrated my ass repeatedly, asking the same question over and over. "Is this how you want to get fucked baby, Is this how you want to take my cock? You gonna take your wife's thick fucking cock for me?"

God yes, I wanted it, I wanted that thick cock to keep drilling into me. It was so easy just to lie there and take it, all I had to do was breath. Breath and be my wife's little bitch.

Just like her fingers, she aimed for the prostate. Though not as accurate, I could feel the pressure pulsing in my cock, sweet, sharp and unfulfilled.

"You want to feel me tomorrow baby?" She asked.

"Yes, God yes, I want to feel you" I gasped out.

She worked the cock more violently, not just in and out but up and down, left to right, even in circles. She is making sure every inch of my ass is stretched, fucked, and used.

I loved it, I love how the bed shakes, the momentum of it, its my ass being pounded that caused the floorboards to creak.

After more of this assault she drew the cock out of my now very well used ass and dove her fingers right back inside. I was easy for her, no resistance, physically or mentally. Her cock made my ass an open book and she easily maneuvers her fingers around.

There was the flash again, she was milking me from the inside, trying to compel the come out of my cock with her invasion.

All I could offer was, "Baby, I so want to come for you, I want to cum on your fingers while you fuck me."

She smiled at this and continued to work me over.

I was tired though, I was not sure I could handle the ministrations needed to get me there without stimulating my cock.

After another minute I offered, "Baby, can I jack off while you do me?"

She was tired too. Without hesitation, "Sure baby, jack off for me... I want to watch you cum while I fuck you"

It took no time at all, I gripped my cock and started pumping. She watched my cock-head swell to purple and and anticipating my orgasm pressed her fingers deep into me.

She was looking over me, sitting between my floating legs so I pushed my cock toward her. I wanted to make sure she had a good view to the eruption of cum that she enabled me to have. It poured out, hot, wet, shooting up and crashing down to land on my oscillating fist. My lower body was covered in front by cum and beneath by lube. I was a mess, and I was happy.

Her fingers slid out of me and I heard the snap of a glove being removed.

My legs started to post-orgasmically shake from the strain of holding them in the air for so long. My back was killing me. I felt her warm hands on my thighs, rubbing them, trying to calm the shakes as my muscles relaxed.

She loves me, I see that so clearly.




This is my first effort at recounting an evening of intimacy with A. I like how it came out despite my reservations on structure, grammar, etc. Frankly, I wouldn't mind having a second pair of eyes on something like this. Anyone up for some light editing? :)

Regardless, please let me know what you think; either about the writing or the activities therein. Is it still pegging if her cock isn't strapped on? I wonder what Mr. Savage would say.

5 comments:

  1. Wow, W., very nice!

    Who cares if it's technically pegging, as long as that good, giving, game wife of yours is making you and your ass into a "husband-toy"? (Love that expression, btw! LOL.)

    Vickie

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  2. Very well written.

    I like how you are able to honestly introspect about your desire for pegging. For example, most people don't understand that humiliation is frequently used to help tear down a person's defenses and allow them to experience the pleasure they really want, but can't have in their usual role.

    If you're interested, I have an essay about some of the philosophical and psychological aspects of pegging on my blog Erosophia. The link is http://erosophia.blogspot.com/2009/09/on-pegging.html

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  3. You know what's funny, I found a link to your blog on another site and didn't realize you had already seen my essay until I saw you user name!

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  4. Thank you for the comment easyg. :)

    Lol Jason, its all good and I am looking forward to reading more of your topics!

    Best,
    W

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